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I am sick,,not my body,,but my heart
God, i don't know why
I hate dreaming,,,i do hate hope!
All of those feeling are only hurt me,,,,
I hate to imagine how happy i am if I,,bla,,bla,,bla
I do hate share to the other people about what i want,,,

Do you know why? Okay, i will not tell you why
I'm just tired to show what i am feeling now
I'm tired to pretend that I'm okay

No,,no,, but I'm not as bad as you think. I still have God, right? I know He is the one who can help in many ways,,in the right time.
I should be patient to get the answers,,,let it flow,,,i'll be waiting!

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Can u see? I Complain, I ask and I reply it  by myself

BBM,,jangan naik dong!!!

Hmm,, I amlittle worried about what will happened on the April!! Yup, it think you know that all, that the BBM price will rise? haha,,,maybe i am too "weird" to talk about it, right? No,,no,, i just wanna talk, as an Indonesian people who will also get the impact of the BBM price increases. Okay, i don't know about it, anyway; about the distribution, about the resources, about the fuel or anything. What i know is the price will rise and i also have to pay more to buy the fuel for my motorcycle!! Haha,,,,,i usually pay Rp. 6.000,00 for one liter, but if it increases, so that i have to pay RP 7.500, 00!

Hmm,, no, i don't really care about myself, i also really care about the "poor" people who don't use fuel for their motorcycle but they have to get the "BIG" impact of that. You know that they even don't have motorcycle, right? They even don't know what will they eat for tomorrow and what will they pay for school? No, It is not fair, i am pretty sure that it can give the bad,,bad,,and bad effect for us,,for Indonesian people, exactly. Why don't the "rich" people that have to get the bad impact? you know that they mustn't have those luxurious car!!

Okay, i don't know nothing, I realize that fact!
But, i support students demonstration nowadays,,,,but, you have to make sure, for students, to know the reason. You have not to say yes, if you don't know why you say yes. And you have not to say no, if you don't know what is the meaning of "no' word. That's the facts, i think, for some students who really excited to join a demonstration but they even don't care about what is the mission! it is ironic, right?

Then, you also have to make sure that there will be no destruction of anything!! No any reason to agree that you can damaged public facilities!  I really hate those destruction...So please,,be wise of anything happen. Can't wait to see the result,, Please,,don't increase the BBM (fuel) price!!

curcol aja deh yaaaaaa

It's such the hard week for me,,,ahh,, I am probably too sensitive, right? There is no something wrong to me, my jobs run well, my family is fine. Good, perfect. But, actually, I even don't understand what happened to my brain.
Okay,, I believe that God will give the best,, the best than what i want,, what i hope. So, Should i worried? No, i am pretty sure that God has a good,,good,,,best plan for my life and i even don't know what will He do. I just let it flow, do my best,,,plan my best.
Hufft,,,let's start the new life,,new future,, and i have to really really sure everything is gonna be okay

Hahaha,,,i couldn't even Cry anymore now!!!

Please stop the violence on children!!

Alhamdulillah,,,sebulan terakhir gak nulis di blog,,,aku sehat2 aja nih,,,walau sempet kemari kena sariawan parah 2 minggu lalu #curcol.

Hmm,, there was something interesting which i found when i taught my students, EYL, exactly. First, i can't believe that it could be happened in the real life. Second, i can't imagine that the little kid like her had to felt that bad condition!

Okay, i will not mention her name or her parents, that's not important. But i have to say that the education level never guarantee someone attitude, even their attitude to a kid. When i taught her, i knew that there was something wrong with her. I knew the she was a child from a rich parents. I knew that,,i knew about her parents. She was not like the other child who loved sing, dance and talk. She was only love to write and do something alone,,look weird. Okay,,but i thought that it was her character,,,there was no any reason for me to get worry. But, i was shocked, when in one day she came to my class with the sad face. Ohh,,i knew that she looked so different. I knew there was something bad happened, but i had to be positive, right? That's why I asked her to sing, dance like usual. I saw she wan not interested anymore,,,aaah,, i was afraid there was something wrong, again, with her. Then, i asked her, while her friends were doing the task, i said "what happened with you?" " Miss ,, I was beaten by my father yesterday" said her quietly. Then, she said  do you wanna see the wound on my foot? and she pulled her pants and showed me the wound on her calf. Oh God, I Can't believe that it was happened, I knew that it must be hurt, especially for a cute kid like her. She was only 5 years old girl who didn't know anything. I didn't know what was the tool which was used by her father to beat her child! But, I absolutely didn't like her father way scolding his daughter.!

She was cute, she was beautiful, what was the problem? Have you beat your child because she did the wrong  thing? No,, i know that it will  very influence her mental. It will not good for her health! Please stop the  violence on children!!